urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pwdrd_toast_man Sterling Jones Sterling Jones 2004-05-14T07:20:32Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pwdrd_toast_man:1867 2004-05-14T07:20:32Z 2004-05-14T07:20:32Z Cream - Spoonful god DAMN<br />this is SO fucking GAY and BORING<br />I haven't been stuck at home this long since, like, my freshmen year?<br />Maybe Kate having my old cell with all my numbers has something to do with it..<br />I really should give her a call.<br />bleh, whatever..<br />I live out in fucking bum fuck egypt queen creek, miles away from anybody i recognize, with no car, and I haven't seen one friend in almost 3 weeks.<br />god, this is the first time in i dunno how long i actually felt like this, I've been the definitive antisocial freak for almost half a year, I just started to really grow tired of people because i was around them all the fucking time..<br />i really fucked up how i interact with people in general, my mind just learned to shut them off because i was around them so much<br />people really started noticing i was acting different..<br />anyway if this isn't a wake up call to how i need human interaction then i dunno what the fuck is<br />dealing with consumerist zombies all day at movie gallery doesn't cut it<br />wtf? this seriously must be getting to me if i'm on fucking LJ typing all this ranting bullshit<br /><br />queen creek is the ultimate bitch urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pwdrd_toast_man:1562 2004-02-01T12:10:22Z 2004-02-01T12:12:40Z Nick Drake - Been Smoking Too Long This song hits home pretty damn well right now...<br />Anyway, I dunno why, but I've been struggling with a strange, disconnected feeling of depression this last month.<br />I haven't been depressed in almost 2 years so I've figured something must be terribly out of place.<br />Maybe my lack of privacy/personal space?<br />My continuing legal troubles?<br />My lack of materials/environment to ex cerise my artistic muse?<br />...and I guess there's not much good I can say that's going on either<br />My plaguing apathy only worsens when I feel down too, but this really is the time to get off my ass urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pwdrd_toast_man:1292 2004-02-01T11:23:54Z 2004-02-01T23:58:07Z Stereolab - The Spiracles Ok, LJ fuckin pisses me off.<br />This is the 3rd time this post has been replaced by a old ass post I made last year.<br />Just because this is the 3rd time this is happend, I'm not going to waste my time making this post any longer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pwdrd_toast_man:1271 2004-01-26T15:30:59Z 2004-01-26T17:25:34Z Sigur Ros - Flugufrelsarinn Hmm..I guess I'm gonna go see a movie with Kate today, her treat..<br />Elephant is actually playing over at the Valley Art and she always let's me pick so that's for sure...<br />It's the new Gus Van Sant movie, it's actually pretty indie/artsy too. I think his previous movies have been a bit over rated and overly sentimental/sappy, but it did win the golden palm at the 03 Cannes, so I pretty much have to see it.<br />Fuck, i'm starving, and i have no cigarettes. I don't even have papers to roll the left over roaches with.<br />Along with the fact that rent is due today, I think today is a perfect day for spanging