wildlife analysis

fucking a, does this boredom bring me back or what?

Fri, 14 May 2004 07:20:32 GMT

god DAMN
this is SO fucking GAY and BORING
I haven't been stuck at home this long since, like, my freshmen year?
Maybe Kate having my old cell with all my numbers has something to do with it..
I really should give her a call.
bleh, whatever..
I live out in fucking bum fuck egypt queen creek, miles away from anybody i recognize, with no car, and I haven't seen one friend in almost 3 weeks.
god, this is the first time in i dunno how long i actually felt like this, I've been the definitive antisocial freak for almost half a year, I just started to really grow tired of people because i was around them all the fucking time..
i really fucked up how i interact with people in general, my mind just learned to shut them off because i was around them so much
people really started noticing i was acting different..
anyway if this isn't a wake up call to how i need human interaction then i dunno what the fuck is
dealing with consumerist zombies all day at movie gallery doesn't cut it
wtf? this seriously must be getting to me if i'm on fucking LJ typing all this ranting bullshit

queen creek is the ultimate bitch

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 12:10:22 GMT

This song hits home pretty damn well right now...
Anyway, I dunno why, but I've been struggling with a strange, disconnected feeling of depression this last month.
I haven't been depressed in almost 2 years so I've figured something must be terribly out of place.
Maybe my lack of privacy/personal space?
My continuing legal troubles?
My lack of materials/environment to ex cerise my artistic muse?
...and I guess there's not much good I can say that's going on either
My plaguing apathy only worsens when I feel down too, but this really is the time to get off my ass

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 11:23:54 GMT

Ok, LJ fuckin pisses me off.
This is the 3rd time this post has been replaced by a old ass post I made last year.
Just because this is the 3rd time this is happend, I'm not going to waste my time making this post any longer

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 15:30:59 GMT

Hmm..I guess I'm gonna go see a movie with Kate today, her treat..
Elephant is actually playing over at the Valley Art and she always let's me pick so that's for sure...
It's the new Gus Van Sant movie, it's actually pretty indie/artsy too. I think his previous movies have been a bit over rated and overly sentimental/sappy, but it did win the golden palm at the 03 Cannes, so I pretty much have to see it.
Fuck, i'm starving, and i have no cigarettes. I don't even have papers to roll the left over roaches with.
Along with the fact that rent is due today, I think today is a perfect day for spanging